Thursday, May 17, 2012

What You Love Can Scare You

Reader, I'm scared. I sent off my finished draft. It's not Finished. It still needs work, but for now I've sent it away with its lunch and a little back pack. It will come home soon enough.

Now I should write something else. It's been a long time since I wrote anything else, thought about anything else. I should be happy!

I should feel free to spin stories like sugar. Stories that are too brittle and sharp and sweet. I could write them down and swallow them up and never think of them again, if I wanted.

Instead, I haven't written anything. I've agonized and felt misplaced and dull.

I know that to break this spell, all I have to do is write.

"Write anything!" Curt tells me, with an encouraging smile. "Write about the Hoohobbin Clan. Write about Fluffy. Write about all the characters who never get stories of their own. Just for fun. You can show them to me. I'll read them."

Yes, I think. Of course. Just write—for fun. FUN and nothing more. It's so simple! I nod in agreement.

And then when Curt leaves, I draw sketches and mutter to myself and wring my hands and wash the dishes and do anything I can think of except to write.

The chubby unicorn, the unicorn girl, and me.
Today I won't hide. Today I have a writing prompt from a friend. I'm thinking about going over to the Unicorn Garden for inspiration.

It's strange how the things you love most can also scare you the most.


3 comments:

  1. meanwhile you're waiting to hear back from your stupid beta reader who's supposed to have been reading for weeks. GOD HOW ANNOYING!!! i hate those kinds of people!!

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  2. Oh, I KNOW. What a terrible beta reader. The worst. I mean, she gives her free time to help another writer for no obvious gain except the possibility of cookies in the mail and she has the audacity to have a LIFE at the same time!? It's outrageous. ;)

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  3. I <3 your gremlin. Perhaps the first step in "defeating" the gremlin is to accept and love it, and not think of it as something to be defeated.

    Good luck with the prompt (is that what the research is for?! No pressure, Sabrina). I have an idea to fill in the blank. A world and a character, but no plot yet.

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