Sometimes when I read other writers' blogs, I feel so small. So very small. Like a child gazing up at a world that is bigger and taller than I will ever be.
"Get thee off the internet!" shouts Kenneth Branagh.
Oh, Kenneth. You always know just what to say.
ok, what did you read?
ReplyDelete(guilty look) Catherynne Valente's livejournal. I am in awe of her talent and of how prolific she is.
ReplyDeleteAnd then tormented myself by watching a really cute video of the authors from the vampire collection Teeth, which included Neil Gaiman, Catherynne Valente, Terri Windling, Holly Black, Ellen Kushner, Delia Sherman, etc etc etc. I was like the loser high school kid peering in on the cool kid's activity (soccer, in the case of my high school, NOT cheerleading and football).
ReplyDeleteI feel that way, too, a lot of the time. Part of it's tied to not posting as often, the other to not writing as much as I want to. (And a part is feeling, stilll, like the student or the fan, and when I step into the role of equal, it doesn't seem quite right.)
ReplyDeleteAs for Mr. Branagh, I will always love him (and Emma Thompson) in "Much Ado About Nothing." "I would my horse had the speed of your tongue. But so good a continuer, a god's name, I have done."
Yes, exactly. That student or fan feeling is still there. Then again, I AM still a student and I will always be a fan. But still, sometimes I feel very small.
ReplyDelete"Much Ado About Nothing" is one of my favorite movies!! Beatrice is the literary heroine I most relate to. We need to hang out and watch movies and anime together for realz.
Yes, as much as I think of myself as a writer above all else, I still feel small, as you say, to the writers I love to read. (This despite the fact that I am a real life acquaintance to an author whose epic fantasy I love.)
ReplyDeleteI have not seen that movie in forever, but I love it, especially that scene. I used to have their fight memorized and I know I still have the handwritten copy of the dialogue that I wrote out in 7th grade or so.