Lately lots of people have been asking what I'm doing. See, my job situation hasn't been consistent for a while now, and it's easy to lose track (also I keep moving to different states).
I've been working in a liberal arts college's admission office (should I capitalize the "A" there? I worked as an editorial assistant on grammar handbooks back in the day, but mostly I learned how to look things up, and I just don't feel like doing that right now). From November through the end of March, it's Reading Season. That means we're reading applications and deciding who gets in and who doesn't.
So right now I work from home, reading applications all day.I'm naturally judgmental. Not only did I cultivate this tendency through interactions with my extended family (what can I say, we're opinionated...), but it's part of my personality too. I think I do a good job of assessing applications, but it means I spend a LOT of time judging people for a living. It spills into my own life and I find myself grading my own performance constantly.
Right now, in life, I'd have to give myself a C. And I DO NOT GET C's. Ever.
Sadly I have to admit that I'm not meeting expectations. I feel like I have only a tenuous hold on life. I'm barely squeezing in the necessary hours to work a full time freelance job while also training a 15 week old puppy, desperately trying to finish my novel revision (2/3s through it!), get back into teaching kickboxing, and figure out how you live in an entire house and still keep it relatively clean.
You guys, there are so many people in my life who deserve cards and gifts—oftentimes the gifts are waiting sullenly in my closet simply because I haven't gotten myself to the post office to mail them. I'm so sorry to all of you for neglecting you. I feel like I'm neglecting a lot right now. I don't even have a birthday gift for my twin sister yet (our birthday is this weekend). I'm just...trying to hang on, trying to get through one day at a time. It's not that life is bad right now, it's just picking up speed and I need to condition myself to the new pace.
Thanks I just needed to get that off my chest. Now, where's my coffee?